04 July 2015

Shit happens

Seems like plans will be about two months late as expected. Joel's job got him to stay back on the ship for extra two months due to work and emergency purposes. That just puts everything to a corner starting with the apartment, moving the other half of the things back in Hawaii, and everything else.

I feel like poop thinking about how everything that was planned out just got messy in less than three text sentences, damn it! Now we have to reevaluate the plan and make changes. I'm trying not to stress, too much about it so I'll look at is as I have more time to thoroughly plan out again. Hopefully this time it will be easier and less hectic since I will not be rushing so much.

My mainland vacation is about to end on July 22 because I have been missing my Patron and Elias so much since I got here and I need to get back to complete my summer, and to get things done. I miss snuggling my fur ball babies so much :(

I guess it's only appropriate to lay out my planner again?

  • Last Hawaii Summer 
  • Road Test 
  • Donate all unwanted things
  • Garage Sale?
  • Sell rest of unwanted clothes 
  • Finalize apartment application 
  • Ship out leftovers threadflip clothes 
  • Neuter Elias
  • Box up things to ship & bring 
  • Savings balance goal: $12k
  • Sell motorbike 
  • Sell gym equipments 
  • Start applying for jobs
  • Purchase an automobile 
  • …….loading 
I think so much, don't I? I feel so restless since I found out that all our August plans were to be moved back. Hey, shit happens and it probably has a purpose. So be it. 

My Summer 2015 blog post will be up soon :)

01 July 2015

Month 7: I fell off the wagon for a week

The week of June 22 - 28th really got me good. I fell off the wagon, guys! I feel like it took over my entire month, but today I'm taking back control and cleaned up my vape.

EDC happened and no one was allowed to bring in vapes, 99% of the friends I was with smoked so it was an easier fix for me. That one night led to the next day, to buying a pack, to buying another pack and a lighter for the following weekend. I made a lot of bad health decisions this week, but I don't want to beat myself up for it. I'm on vacation and got carried away with fun and making memories. Yes, I got drunk, I smoked, and this & that. That is no excuse, but the main thing is that I recognize where I messed up at and need to get back up. I'll call it an occasional slip up?

I could have easily just covered up the lie and say I did perfectly wonderful, but what's the point of this one year journey to recovery if I don't tell the truth about how hard it can get, too. There you go, I slipped up for a week. I let a melting pot of toxins in my body, recognize the problem, and pick up where I left off.

Cheers xoxo.